| More Not to talk about Days lol |
[May. 4th, 2005|04:09 pm] |
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Yea, there kind of is stuff that went on in the past couple days, but nothing I want to think about. And you know me, all smiles right? lol |
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| Wow....it's been months for me on here lol |
[Apr. 30th, 2005|06:07 pm] |
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Hey everyone,
I've decided to start posting on here again. I kind of took a break for a while. Dealing with college and everything. But I promise that I'll start posting more. I can't believe how many people want to be my friend. lol It's surprising. But I do thank you for being my friends and reading my posts. Well, whats going on now? I'm still here at SUNY B'port, just waiting for school to be over honestly. It's a great place, and fun to be around my friends here, but I also like to be home, and take a break from it all you know? My mom will be happy to see me anyways, especially since I owe her money. lol I don't remember when the last time I posted on here was, and forgot to check. But now we're in the second semester of course, and the weather is getting better. Not great, but better. Right now its just rainy and crappy. Perfect football weather! lol I really wish that so many people didn't go home this weekend and leave me here. Oh well. I only have this week left, and then classes are over with. And then come 3 finals. That should be interesting.
I'm sitting here very bored. I have nothing to do right now. I'm all dressed up right now too. lol I just went to dinner with my friend and her roommie, and I told her I would dress up cuz she has a performance tonight for her club thing. I told her I was going to dress pimp just to play around. But it was funny. I was the only guy there dressed up for no reason at the dining hall. lol I had fun. Well, I hope you guys keep reading, but now I have to go. I'm going to register for classes for next year. Bye bye! |
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| More Classes |
[Aug. 30th, 2004|11:42 am] |
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I'm on my "break" right now. Cuz i just finished 2 classes, and i have one more at 1:15 for an hour. Its only an Academic seminar thing though, so not too bad. Today was kool though. I went to Meteorology and Comp. Science. I got out of both of them early. lol First class, cuz the projector broke that professor was usin. lol Im sure havin a lot of luck here. Then in comp. science, he just let us out early. Well, he said, u COULD leave. But i mean who isnt going to? lol I ended up meetin Nikki and her roommates at the dining hall. So it all worked out i guess. lol Im havin a great time here. And honestly, not missin the fam that much. I'm just appreciatin what i have here. : ) |
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| A party thing on the 2nd day! |
[Aug. 29th, 2004|11:58 am] |
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Im just sittin here in my room bored. Cuz nothin to do. Well, im gonna go ask this girl to lunch in a sec. Prolly say no again though. lol I dont wanna eat by myself though. So hopefully she says yea. Anyways, i went to a party/get-together last night. 8:30 till 2am. It was fun. Got to drink for pretty much my first time. But, i did not get drunk! lol Really i didnt though. I was actually surprised. Cuz all of the stuff we were drinkin. Like Bicardi smoothies, and beer. I guess im lucky im Irish. : )) Well, i guess im off for now. C ya later. |
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| Havin A Great Time!! |
[Aug. 28th, 2004|07:56 am] |
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Im havin a blast over here. Last night we went to a comedy show on campus. It was Screech, from saved by the bell. lol Mad funny though. I was dyin. I had a lot of fun. Me and my roommate went. Other than that, its still been great here. The women look good. lol And i like my room, and where its located. So everythings kool here. Today im goin to see if this girl wants to do somethin. Maybe i'll have a new friend. lol Who knows. Well, i g2g get ready for somethin. Bye |
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| Still holdin on |
[Aug. 26th, 2004|08:43 pm] |
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Well, it's almost time to pack this thing up. I'm going to after me and my mom pack my clothes up in a little while. Should be fun. lol Since my bro will be having a heart attack while we're unplugging it. He already wants to be on all night. But sry, not going to happen. I'm leaving at 9 in the morning. So I'm going to bed early for the 3rd night in a row. I probably won't sleep during the drive. Probably just play with the slinky my sis gave me. lol
My sister gave my mom a picture of her for me to take today too(awww right?). lol But they ripped it out of something, and it was all tore up. So I cut off the messed up edges and put it in my wallet. That was pretty much today, other than going to the store for my mom. But that's a usual routine thing I guess. lol Well, I did get my haircut today, so that's a good thing. Now my hair looks good again. Idk if I'll be able to sleep that much tonight. Hopefully I will. I didn't really sleep that much last night either though. Just kind of lyed there doing nothing. I'm being really random right now, and that's a sign of nothing to say. lol So Im going to get going. I'll ttygl. Goodnight : ) |
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| One more day |
[Aug. 26th, 2004|09:14 am] |
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Well, went to bed early again. It's good for me though. I only have one more day until college time. lol I was going to be fine with the whole leaving thing. But now my family has to go and ruin everything. My mom was making me pack some of my stuff from my room yesterday, so I put my Computer Science portfolio in the box-I figured if I was going to take the class, I might was well bring that. And I also put some other things in there as well. I went upstairs with the box, and my sister's up there. She's like, Aaron's leaving tommorrow? My mom told her no, that I was leaving Friday, but it's all the same to her. lol But, my sister won't be here, because she's going to the State Fair with her dad today. So my sister got sad, and went upstairs. She was looking for a folder for me that I needed, but couldn't find any. Then she comes back down with a slinky. lol And told me to take it to remember her by. Like I was going to forget my own sister. : ) So she goes back upstairs. And after a while I go up there to put the box with the rest of my things. And I see that her door is shut, so I go a little closer, and I hear her in there crying. I'm like oh jeeze. Not my department. lol I went back down to tell my mom, cuz Meri only listens to her. I know all you girls are going to say, awww that's so cute. lol But I was planning on leaving with a smile, sorry to burst my bubble right?
I made a mistake though. I don't exactly remember how me and my mom began this conversation, but we started talking about drinking. Oh! I think she was saying something about having to go out for a drink after she left me...even though she doesn't drink. lol Anyways, then she said, I haven't had a beer in like 5 years. I was like, yeah I know, me either. lmao She gave me the funniest look. She freaks out and everything, You better not have at 13 years old! I'm like mom, calm down, I was just kidding...I was 16. : )) Then all of a sudden she punches me! Right in the arm. lol I was like, don't hit me, hit dad. So yea, that was funny. Screwy day yesterday. Today's going to be even worse though, because I know my mom's going to cry. And I hate seeing her cry. Even for stupid reasons. lol Life has to go on though right? It's not like I'm never coming back you know? But they're still all having a heart attack. And that's the one way I'm looking at it, I'm going to be back, so why cry about it? I know I'm going to miss them a lot. But that's when you smile about the time you'll see them again. : )
I'm going to get going though. I have to pack my clothes and pretty much that's it for packing. So I'll talk to everyone later. Well...after the net is on in my room at college. Until then, everyone have a great time doing what your doing! : )) |
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| Sleepless Memories |
[Aug. 24th, 2004|03:44 am] |
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I cant sleep again tonight. Surprise huh? lol Im just thinkin too damn much. And no, its not cuz of college or anything like that. Just the normal things. And bein sad... : ( I hate when i have to type sad entries. But it happens i guess. The reason i've been said is the same as usual. I just miss Laurel a lot...
I went upstairs, on our 3rd floor, to sit in the chair that i read in. But its also the chair i think in. And i always go there to think about things at night as i looked out at the city(cuz we're on a huge hill). Idk y i go there at night, i just feel more comfortable in the dark. lol In the past..i would go there when i had nothin else to do-i would laugh and smile about the happy memories i had with her. Think about the next time i would see, and be with her. Be able to hold and kiss her. But now...when im there, all i can do is be sad. I thought that it would make me happy to go and remember, but..not really. It actually just made things worse. Of course i would still think about the times we had together. Although back then, i was still with her, and i knew i was going to be able to hold her again. Now, i just grow more sad when i think about those things. Cuz i know it wont happen again. Honestly, i guess i've been believing, well, more like hoping in my heart that it will happen again. Like running blindly in circles, alone, and noone to guide me. She was my guide, my "hope" in life. But i've lost that hope now. Took long enough right? : ) And now everday, i'm more torn inside. Making the wound bigger. I know i hide it on the outside. Trying to be happy and optomistic. But its like a new day coming...shining on me, and the dark still lingering inside. Everyone tells me that it'll be ok. But that light i search for inside, just keeps getting dimmer as the days go on. It sux. lol I'll prolly always have a tiny ounce of hope left. But not enough to make me happy. Cuz it could happen again, but it wont. I know i prolly sound like a psycho. lol Excuse me for that. But it really sux bein sad all the time. I still love her, just as much as i always have...and its not fading like her's did for me. Damn it. lol jk So yea...just bein sad over here, dont mind me. lol I know she's going to read this, but thats ok. If your still readin this, thx. : ) Its kinda long, and definitely depressing. lol And i hope i didnt ruin your day. : ))
I'm goin to end this post on a good note though. It's always best to do that. That's y i got the sad stuff outta the way first. lol Kevin came back home for a couple days to visit. So the passed few days have been fun. Just don't hang out with us too much at a time, cuz trust me, we turn into some scary people. lol Sunday the day after he got back, his family, of course went to dinner. And like always it was chinese(i know..blah), which is kool wit me. lol I just cant eat too much of it. I might get a hairball from the cat that we eat. lmao Im just messin with ya. But i always go with them, i dont even know y. Just a tradition. It's kool though, cuz it gets me outta the house. Which i definitely need. Then today we went to the mall for a bit, and then grocery shoppin with his mom. lol The funniest damn thing i have ever seen happened on the way back from the store. We were almost back to his house. We crossed a bridge, and on the side of the road we saw two girls walkin. So Kevin goes, i should scream at them(it was pitch black outside). Then he tells his mom that she should slow down. I didnt think he was going to do it, but then right as we passed them, he stuck his head out the window and screamed. lol It was great. One of the girls screamed mad loud, and jumped back about 15 feet in the air. lol I couldnt stop laughin for a long time. I hadnt laughed like that in a while either. Then we came back to my house and now its now. : ) He's stayed here everyday though, cuz his grandma took his room. Straight up ran his shit dawg. lol Sry, i'll stop.
Well, that was my past few days. I hope yours have been a lot better than mine. And if you read this whole thing. I applaude you. lol And thank you very much. I hate when i write all this stuff and noone reads it. I guess i dont blame you very much though. : )) I'm off now, prolly not goin to sleep as usual. But hey, i'll catch up on it. Ttys! |
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| Goin by so fast.. |
[Aug. 19th, 2004|08:21 am] |
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I cant believe its already Thursday. Idk y, but my mind kept thinkin it was a day earlier than it really was this whole week. lol I guess that just means that im one day closer to leavin. Only 8 days and im outta this piece. lol jk Didnt mean to go ghetto on you. : ) I kinda slipped up yesterday on the way to the store wit my mom. I told her that i couldnt wait to leave, cuz it'll be an upgrade in livin. I didnt mean it like i hate the way i live now. (Even though it kinda sux, you get used to it after 18 yrs. lol) Im just anxious to start a new life i guess. New town, new friends, everything. It'll be kool to see what its like. My friend Kevin that goes to college in Pittsburgh, he feels the opposite about his new life. But..i dont think i can blame him. He got stuck wit roommates he doesnt really like, he hates his school, and pretty much all of his classes. lol And he hates big cities, so dont ask me why he went there. He already wants to come home. I hope my experience doesnt turn out like that. But honestly, i dont think it will.
Goin shoppin this weekend wit my mom AGAIN. lol It just seems like she's stretchin it out so it will end up takin till the last min to finish. It feels kinda weird, this bein my last weekend home and everything u know? Plus i wont be back till Christmas either. So thats about 4 months. My mom's gonna spear me when i walk in the door. lol I might have to spend my visit in a body cast at the hospital. : )) Havent done much this week. I started to finish my book for college. Its a good book actually, and i like to read it. That would suck if i went there, and i was the only one that read it. lol
Two days ago a stabbing happened about 20 ft from my front door...So that was a lil weird. I heard someone scream, and sirens. I had no idea that it was that close though. I thought it was down the street. I hate this city for that exact reason. But then again, this isnt the only city in which violence occurs. Thats y im gonna live in the country when im older. lol Or try to at least. I like it out there better anyways. Im like that half and half breed. Growing up in the city, and then on a farm wit my father on the weekends. lol But that side of me is kinda fading i guess. I miss my grandma though. I havent seen her, just as long as i havent seen my father. She's almost 80, and the last time i saw her, one of the healthiest women i've ever seen. lol Even still excersises. But anyways. Time to stop boring you guys wit my life. : ) It wasnt too bad for you i hope? lol Have a great day! |
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